'nuff said.

nothing is good.

nothing to write about either means im living a horrible unfulfilling life or that im living an amazing one.

or maybe ive just been too busy for self reflection.

i want to fall in love.
thats all i know right now.

i dont think its about how strong a person is... just what their interests are.

i dont think its about how strong a person is... just what their interests are.

"not everyone is as strong as you"... "you are so strong to beat all you have"...
my new response is going to be that it isnt how strong you are, its if you are interested in fighting it.
ive always been fascinated with how the mind works. ive always set goals for myself. whether it be to become a more patient person, let go of anger or ditch an addiction, ive always wanted to be better tomorrow than i am today. for some people this is far from their goal. their goals are to be a good mom or wife to their overworked husband... to have nice things, to get a raise. granted, i want all those things too, but under it all my true goals never waiver.

i think thats why all these "tests" are laid before me. i was up for the challenge.
i am up for the challenge.

9.22.09

in havasu...
i dont know of anything besides love that makes you feel more alive than a thunderstorm.
it awakens every sense.
the pitter patter of rain, the drops at your feet...
the sound of the roaring thunder.
the smell.
its beautiful, fresh. perfect.
in a thunderstorm you forget about cancer.
i want to run naked in the rain.
add that to my bucket list: run naked in the rain.

most of us frown apon thunderstorms.
it gets in the way of our busy lives. gets our car dirty. makes us late...
but tonight, i sit at the table outside and i thank god. i thank mother earth... for the gift of feeling alive.

havasu.

Miles from nowhere... cat stevens...

Miles from nowhere
I guess Ill take my time
Oh yeah, to reach there

Look up at the mountain
I have to climb
Oh yeah, to reach there.

Lord my body has been a good friend
But I wont need it when I reach the end

Miles from nowhere
Guess Ill take my time
Oh yeah, to reach there

I creep through the valleys
And I grope through the woods
cause I know when I find it my honey
Its gonna make me feel good

I love everything
So dont it make you feel sad
cause Ill drink to you, my baby
Ill think to that, Ill think to that.

Miles from nowhere
Not a soul in sight
Oh yeah, but its alright

I have my freedom
I can make my own rules
Oh yeah, the ones that I choose

Lord my body has been a good friend
But I wont need it when I reach the end

Miles from nowhere
Guess Ill take my time
Oh yeah, to reach there.