practice.

When I make up my mind about something… I usually follow it through. In the past couple of months, I have gone from a caffeine and nicotine addict who drinks too much and only “cooks” with a microwave oven to wanting more organic food, limiting my caffeine intake and quitting smoking. Ive gone from 60 to 0 in no time flat. I joked for a bit about becoming Mormon. Funny thing is, I’m not too into rules or church…
Since I ran into an old friend around thanksgiving, I’ve really been drawn to what he has to say. He seemed so peaceful, paced and happy. I sensed nothing but goodness coming from him and I dug the hell out of it. It was like the opposite of a toxic meeting… it was invigorating and motivating. Ive done a lot of thinking since our visit. I am determined to be happy and peaceful. And I know that’s my choice.
He turned me on to a certain Buddhist Monk’s writings. I purchased two of his books. One pertaining to anger, the other to living in the moment. Good. Good stuff. Words to live by.
Im not sure if I will ever call myself by any religion, since I refuse to “warship” anyone- being that I think we are all one… but these practices and teachings are so good.
My whole entire life I’ve been searching for happiness and peace within myself.
I’ve almost feared finding it.
Feared I wouldn’t know who I was without the pain and restlessness.
Feared if I mastered this, my life would be over.
I think I’m over that.
I think its time.
There are so many more lessons to learn.
There’s always something higher to reach for.
I’m excited.

Thanks to Matt for our visit.