being on hold.

im on hold with the nevada unemployment office. its only been 15 minutes and i know i have at least another hour of scratchy hold music to go.

more often than not i live a fairly uneventful life... by choice. im one of those people that needs their down time. i also need a full 8 hours of sleep every night. im unique i guess. maybe thats why i havent had kids. whatever. so this past week has been super full. im getting used to not working and being on a certain schedule and having a lot of down time. last week we had in-law family and friends in town. too much for one girl. i feel badly because i didnt get to do everything everyone else wanted me to do, but at the same time, im not a shopper or a clubber, so give it up. one of the friends that was in town was expressing how tiring it was for HIM to be the life of the party. the fun one. uh huh. agreed. im not always fun. im not always perky. im not always into getting wasted. you're over it. since when do i care what people think anyway? awe... i must be growing up. 28's a bitch.

you know what else is a bitch? trying to start a non-profit affiliate.
seriously.
i know people have lives. me too! duh. i just wish these ladies didnt push for this new group. i wanted to back off and away from the whole cancer thing... and everyone was gung ho about starting a ysc affiliate. i expressed i didnt want to be doing this alone. and sometimes... i feel alone. granted, i have one loyal partner in crime... and i hope it lasts... but 2 girls cant run an affiliate. hopefully ill get some advice while in dc on how to motivate volunteers and how to communicate the best with everyone.
it is ubber frustrating.

[on hold for 25 minutes now.]

i saw another girl passed yesterday. i didnt know her but it always hits hard.
this shit better not kill me.
ill be super pissed!